Ari
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12:07:00 am on March 17, 2006 | # |
Hi! My name is Bambang Arbyanto. I am 20 years old and I have a confession to make. I can’t be bothered with sending anonymous postcards to postsecret.blogspot.com because I do not believe in confessions being made behind a wall. Confessions ought to be direct, open and sincere, hence I am taking this opportunity to tell you a bit, or perhaps a big part, of myself that I’ve been keeping for the past decade. From hereon, you can address me as ‘Baby’. Allow me to proceed with stories about my life.I have a very good friend, whom you may refer to as Izza, or Izzy, as I would call personally, who has the same complexity since she was 7 years old. She is nearly reaching her 40’s now but still looking as great as she was 20 years ago.
I met Izza when I ran away from home at the age of 14 packed with only a small haversack full of clothes and a wallet cashed with less than 10 bucks. I nearly got mugged at the train station when an old man hagardly dressed, tried to snatch my bag while I was asleep but was chased away soon after Izza screamed for the police. I was so embarrassed at that point of time, with my teenage boy ego still prominent, when I thought I was rescued by a woman. Boy, did my instincts disappointed me when I later realised that Izza was in fact, as she preferred to be labelled as, a drag queen.Izza was born in the sub-urbs of Singapore back in 1969 and was raised by a poor family of 3, she being the only son, and had very little to eat. Hafiz was the beautiful name given by her parents and at the age of 6, she had started to fend for herself and her parents by earning $5 every month by performing clown acts as a young she-clown with small circus shows around the non-developed island. In brief, that was how she got used to dressing as a woman and since she was not really well-educated and couldn’t afford a decent self-improvement program to learn more about the internet, with due consent, I am writing this confession also on her behalf.
For the two of us, getting a life partner wasn’t easy. There was this slight problem. Apart from our fetish, or rather, sexual tendency to cross dress as women, we are actually straight men. I love women who are sensitive, caring, decent, non-promiscuous and faithful. As for Izza, she prefers blondes, tall, long-legged, big-breasted, round-assed caucasian or latino women who are rich and preferably bisexual. Both of us found it hard to find someone, who can accept us as who we are, being as beautiful, as loving, as feminine, as lovely, as sensitive and most importantly as women who would walk by our respective woman’s sides.Most women claim they want metrosexual guys who could take care of their own man-beauty, most women claim they want the sensitive new-age guys who could be with and touch their emotions when they are down, most women also claim they want men who could satisfy them emotionally and physically but most of the women we met are like hypocrites, living double standards when they turn us down flat when in true fact, we met all of their requirements they stated before we expose our inner selves to them.
“It is really hard… I mean, my penis is really still hard and strong despite my age but why must those women shy away when we say we are straight men? I don’t understand…” expressed Izza while combing her just cropped hair which was almost to her hip yestesday before she decided to cut it as they were already spotting split ends.Izza was skeptical initially to do up this confession with me because from her experience, normally, a she-male would most likely be sexually inclined to men although there are a few of them who are bisexual and it would be difficult for the public to really understand our sexual preferrence without having to ask so many questions that we simply couldn’t be bothered to answer.
“If being homosexual is already so wrong in the public eye, what makes you think people can accept this? Us?” she asked before. “It is like imagining men accepting “butches” as their lover and making love to them (butches). Get it?” She added further, like as if I didn’t understand the whole situation. I kept myself shut. My mind, thinking about how Izza raised me up and provided me education with a private tutor and how we had our fun times together throughout these 6 years or so. Izza is indeed like my father, my mother, my sister, my brother, all in one. She seems to have the whole package to be anything she wants to be in a family tree.
There were also times when Izza and I had to dress like real men in order for us to go out on dates. Of course the feelings we had were very wrong. You can imagine yourself, if you are a man who had always been seen as a man, dolling yourself up in a dress and go out on a date with a woman.It sure does feel funny, isn’t it? But do we have any other alternatives? We are still humans too but that doesn’t make us the minority who should obligingly cater to the majority so-called normal people out there all the time. Is that what you call fair? Or is that what you think how life should be?
It seems, for now, what Izza and myself have are a bunch of friends, good friends I should say, who could and would understand our current situation and accept us for how we look or who we are when we go out in public. Other than that, noone else other than Izza’s closer friends from her old workplace (the circus) and a couple of other she-males who would hang out with us for drinks or for supper.How I wish, I can have a pretty normal life. But isn’t being different, a sort of being special because you are not normal? Isn’t being different makes you not typical? Isn’t being different makes you stand out from the rest of mediocrity? People used to tell me, “Be yourself and people will accept you for who you are…”
Now I am telling you people, I am being myself, I drag but I love women and I want to walk by my wife and kids as a woman-husband and father. I keep to myself and to my closest friends, I don’t talk that much to you, I cry when I am bumped into a terrible situation and I stammer and will go blank when faced with my dream girl… all because I am being myself.
Well how do you like me now?
Nong 12:15 am on March 17, 2006 | # |
ohmaknenek!! HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA!!!
lidah aku tak boleh handle melihat kau berpakaian sebgitu!
kasi aku seteret kan lidah dahulu.. nanti aku komen lagi!! HHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHA!!!!
Linda NJ 2:14 am on March 17, 2006 | # |
curvaceous sak badan si Bambang ni. tsk. saya jeles banget.
oh, dan malam-malam pun nak kena pakai cermin mata hitam ke?!
Aistim 3:34 am on March 17, 2006 | # |
Bontot nak jack je. SOntot kang!
Kak Lis 8:25 am on March 17, 2006 | # |
errmmm, errrmm… some peopl are confius..
I only like the clothes they are wearing… very the *toot*..
All the best for the 2 of you in your life and future endeavours. ;)
Suraya 9:01 am on March 17, 2006 | # |
**ROLLING ON THE FLOOR LAUGHING MY FREAKIN’ ASS OFF**
That’s just damn funny…..lol
Saila 9:05 am on March 17, 2006 | # |
are you guys ok? Do you need help? I’ll volunteer for a date… ;o
Crab 9:19 am on March 17, 2006 | # |
Ari ko memang giler ah. Kelakar seram.
Tu dalam baju ko taruk epel ke oren?
Hehehehe
nora 9:36 am on March 17, 2006 | # |
geli siak…muahhahahaa
Tun_Jebat 10:59 am on March 17, 2006 | # |
siapa punya kaki tuh kena cukur? Sebab setahu aku cukur kaki haram… Baik lelaki maupun perempuan.. Kalau itu setakat gambar je baguslah..
Ann 11:19 am on March 17, 2006 | # |
You so very the sexy!!! Posing maut sey! Hahahaa
Ann 11:20 am on March 17, 2006 | # |
You so very the sexy!!! Posing maut sey! Hahahaa
sugaa 11:32 am on March 17, 2006 | # |
HAHAAAAAAAAAAA. omg. woaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. you have good posture, i must say. XDDDD
awan 11:43 am on March 17, 2006 | # |
tak kuar pun komen awan. penat taip.
anyway, for Baby & Izza, you ols mmg diva. very the very. heheheh.
kondifensz habis!
Lady Lee 11:47 am on March 17, 2006 | # |
HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!
That was one DAMN FUNNY post!!!
I burst out laughing right in front of my children.
HAHHAHAHA!
Keep it on, Ari.
Eh, like this, i can do a seme kow tow to you for having these kelakar-nak-mampos.COM punya post.
Ye lah, pantat nak jack je. Cermin mata tu, bole pinjam tak?
Hahahahaa…
Have a good weekend ya!
Pujangga Malam 11:53 am on March 17, 2006 | # |
Mak aii… Lepak seh… I’m loss for words… Meh sini aku nak spank itu bontot lentik mcm Ziana Zain…
Doink 12:01 pm on March 17, 2006 | # |
Hush lil baby dun say a word
Momma’s gonna buy you a mockingbird
If the mockingbird don’t sing
Momma’s gonna buy you a diamond ring
Doink 12:02 pm on March 17, 2006 | # |
*Doink pengsan*
Ann 12:41 pm on March 17, 2006 | # |
Hmm…how come my comment tak keluar ni???
You very the sexy..!! posing maut sey..!! POWER!! Hahaa
Ann 12:42 pm on March 17, 2006 | # |
Why comment tak keluar ni….
isk!
ainynn 12:44 pm on March 17, 2006 | # |
lol…i am downright speechless!
adi 1:01 pm on March 17, 2006 | # |
ha ha ha , make me tawa tak henti.
adi 1:01 pm on March 17, 2006 | # |
ha ha ha , make me tawa tak henti.
cheq 1:57 pm on March 17, 2006 | # |
unforgetable nite! ahahahahahhaahahah adoiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.. coli tuh aku dah rendam basoh wangiiiiii.. kalau nak mintak lagi yaaa akkaakakakaaaa
Shanaz 2:07 pm on March 17, 2006 | # |
A pearl of a post from a gem of a blogger :)
Keep bloggin!
Dr Parinya Charoenphol 3:18 pm on March 17, 2006 | # |
Sawadee…
You gerls are really hot man.
But i can make u hotter, i am a plastic surgeon, i offer u cheap cheap transsexual surgery.
Vagina
Posterior repair 2,000 USD (2d)
colon cut vaginoplasty 4,000 USD (4d)
Reduction labioplasty 1,200 USD (opd)
Breast Surgery
Breast enlargement 2,000 USD (2d)
Breast uplift 3,500 USD (3d)
Mandible (Jaw surgery)
Angle resection 2,500 USD (3 night stay in hospital)
Botox injection for making jaw muscle smile on both side 500 USD
Sex Reassignment Surgery
Penile Inversion Vaginoplasty 4,000 USD (4d)
Scrotal Skin Graft Vaginoplasty 5,000 USD (4d)
Colon cut Vaginoplasty 6,500 USD (5d)
Testis removal (Orchidectomy) 1,600 USD (opd)
Sigmoid colon cut Vaginoplasty 4,000 USD
(4 night to stay in hospital)
Adam’s Apple
Reshaving 1,000 USD (opd)
Since u gerl are so pretty and hot u gerls can pay me in Thai Baht instead of USD.
Dr Parinya Charoenphol 3:24 pm on March 17, 2006 | # |
Sawadee again…er you no need to go Bangkok for surgery, i am based in melaka.
meela 3:40 pm on March 17, 2006 | # |
Baby, kawan aku tanye aku, si izza tu gerfren kau…wakakakakak Lis..kawan aku tu mata dia potek kot.
Hani 3:43 pm on March 17, 2006 | # |
DADDYYY!!!!!!! WAT TELAH HAPPEN TO UUUUUU?!?!??!?!!?!!!!!
*faints*
Pujangga Malam 4:36 pm on March 17, 2006 | # |
Sejak bila si Parinya ni dapat title “Dr”??? Setahu aku dia Beautiful Boxer aje…
Dr Pari 5:10 pm on March 17, 2006 | # |
Sawadee..don’t scared ..don’t scared . The university of Kepundek and Kepepek just bestow the title to me.
dwik 5:22 pm on March 17, 2006 | # |
*tepok dahi*
punyalah daring!
Abang suke lepak kat changi 5:29 pm on March 17, 2006 | # |
Aww, bontot baby tu kan,lentik cam donald duck .Senyuman izza tu kan aww,manis menawan cam tasmanian devil.
Brennan 6:29 pm on March 17, 2006 | # |
Izza looks like a rich Tai-Tai. Everything from Tangs, right?
uncle sha 9:39 pm on March 17, 2006 | # |
got me cracking … amazing ‘trans’formation!
nice biceps btw
barney 9:46 pm on March 17, 2006 | # |
hahaha…weird la u dude, i mean, mr ari.
Faddy 10:59 pm on March 17, 2006 | # |
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahaha. omg that is SO classic. Gimme more gimme more gimme moreeeeee!!
Trina 10:30 am on March 18, 2006 | # |
ari kau biar betik siak!!!!! mak aiiiiiiiiiii lepak siak!! hahahaha hmmmm takleh angkat babe!!! woohooooooo!!!!
Baby The Host for This Post 10:46 am on March 18, 2006 | # |
Nong:
Dah straight balik ke belom? Apa komen seterusnya?
Linda NJ:
Malam-malam kena pakai cermin mata hitam takut nanti kalau kita staring balik pat orang yang staring boleh jadi gadoh kalau ternampak mata belolok kita.
aistim:
mana boleh… kita sontot orang jugak lah..
Kak Lis:
What is the toot?
Suraya:
sabar cik kak… banyak habuk kat floor tu..
Saila:
Really??? Haaa.. Izza! Apa lagi? Pi lah!
crab:
Di dalam baju ada cinta! heheh..
nora:
Sampai hati kau geli dengan fellow human beings… majok ah!
tun_jebat:
kalau haram mana hadis nya? kalau haram kenapa ditatapnya?
Ann:
Sabar.. baca comment tips kat bawah tu..
anyway ‘you’ ada 6.. which one?
sugaa:
I do sit downs with good posture everyday!
awan:
Diva? kelasss gitukan awan? Apa yang awan typekan byk2 tuh tadi yg tak keluar?
lady lee:
Then you let your kids tengok eh? ai sey man ramli!
Cermin mata kita beli kat JB RM10 for the brown one and the black one pat singapoh SGD15 kat suntec. hurhur..
pujangga malam:
ahah! kau dah kena spot. Actually kau ada fetish for butts eh? huhuhu..
Doink:
tu mcm lagu metallica jer?
aik.. jgn pengsan!!!
Ann:
Keluar. Tu dia.. haaa… nampak tak? haaaa…. tu tu tu tu *tunjuk2 pat comment*
ainynn:
But you already said somethings.. hahah..
adi:
I make you tawa tak henti dua kali eh? kehkeh..
cheq:
manalah tahu cheq.. kalau aku tak berezki di dalam bidang itu, aku terjun ke bidang ni lah pulakkk. Itu time jugaklah aku sewa semua yang kau nak give away… ni macam kena training wocal kod!
shanaz:
Thank you. errr.. What can I do for you?
Dr Parinya Charoenphol:
Wah like that, I need to consult my guardian Izza first.. she is my financer and will decide if we need those packages. But most probably she would say no because she is a very staunch muslimah!
meela:
hahaha… kawan kau sapa? aik? you can view the pics ah?
hani:
*holds her back of her hand on the table* hani… daddy needs to tell you something… *pause*
But I guess you’ve seen it… oh tidak……..
and where have you gone to dah berapa hari kau tak balik? risau aku dibuatnya tau!
Pujangga Malam:
That must be pelanduk dua serupa dalam yellow pages thai!
Dr Pari:
Hmmm… so you are a greenhorn lah with less experience? Just graduate ah?
dwik:
Kita memang daring. Pasal actually tak tahu apa activity nak buat so kita be ourselves!
Abang suke lepak kat changi:
Bukan bontot ajer yang lentik.. ada beberapa lagi bendak yang lentik bang…
seperti bulu mata dan jari-jemari… dan izza pon lentik kelentik dia! hahahah..
brennan:
Izza comes from a poor family but she is high maintenance. Luckily she knows where to shop for cheap clothes that looks like da’bomb! This Fashion and Giordano! Sometimes pasar malam!
uncle sha:
which biceps you talking about? the right one or the left one? hehe..
faddy:
What more do I have ehk? hmm… That is all I have for my collection because we are poor no money to buy digicam. Lucky that day, our friends sponsor phototaking! huhuhu..
trina:
Memang betik… really! Memang tak boleh terangkat dah. Berat sungguh kalau nak diangkatnya. Tapi Izza Tu ringan. Hanya 55kg sahaja… kehkehkeh
Zharin Ozman 11:15 am on March 18, 2006 | # |
Is yu ols abertising make-up? I am interesting in yu ols to be my modellings person. Very pontetial posing and yu ols has professionally modellings in all the world to see. Contact me ok. All persons knowing me who already. Any young boys for me too?
acik 11:20 am on March 18, 2006 | # |
Aku suka tgk gambar korang tengah posing. Btw sape tukang solek tu? Very nicely done. Jambu gak korang eh. Sape lak Butch ngn korang tu?
Tun Jebat 11:59 am on March 18, 2006 | # |
-kalau haram mana hadis nya?
Since you ask for it then i suggest you find buku Fiqh Shafiee, bahagian bab cukur2 bulu..
-Kenapa ditatapnya?
Aku sekadar melihat..
No offence Ari, im not trying to be perfect ke step alim, nak point out ur mistakes ke apape.. Im just telling u what’s my opinion..
Baby The Host for This Post 12:34 pm on March 18, 2006 | # |
Zharin Ozman:
Arrgghh! You is the not good people! I don’t like you although I don’t know you because you are not famous like Pijjat T! Looking at your propose, I can sensor that you want to earn quick buck for yourself!
Go Away before I call my mummy Izza!
Acik:
Korang eh? KORANG eh?
That butch is not a butch lah… he is a real man. His name is Nonononek!
Tun Jebat:
Tetapi itu adalah antara mazhab yang ada. Banyak lagi yang bercanggah dan tak bersependapat di antara mazhab2 itu semua. Aku ikut mana yang aku fikir omar rojik.
Kenapa ditatapnya tu aku tanya saja jer nak cari soalan untuk kau jawab.. huhu
Aku tak amik ofens lah, don’t worry. You are free to comment and even better kalau comment yang deeper than the surface. Aku suka. Healthy discussion lah katakan. Aku ni kan bukannya kurang umur nak marah dengan perkara2 kecik…
Cuma seseorang ajer yang boleh buat aku ‘peng’ giler dgn perkara kecik… yang lain… very the jarang, once in a blue moon gitu. Berjela lah pulak reply aku iye… but this just shows how I appreciation peoples who speaking up their views. Keep the comments/ criticisms coming. I am all ears and eyes and fingers!
cekmi 3:00 pm on March 18, 2006 | # |
very important message that requires urgent attention from the public. very daring. i like!
Ann 11:08 am on March 19, 2006 | # |
Oh yeah. Saw the comments. Sorry hor. Jgn marah.
Anyway, have a great weekend!
chot 8:41 pm on March 19, 2006 | # |
bro, when i read ur post, it seemed deeper than the photo humour that most people see and quite sad also. if there really are people like them, i sympathise with their situation. good write bro!
lunacy 1:08 pm on March 20, 2006 | # |
eh kau drag baby? tapi apsal pakai skirt labuh eh? *wink wink*
hisah 6:30 am on March 21, 2006 | # |
a veri funny post!!takleh angkat seh!!
Joe 7:44 am on March 22, 2006 | # |
Ari, first time tengok & baca this article nie , den bergelak macam nak rak tau!!! cute lah & worry shall you not cause there’s room for improvement bro !!! * SENYUM. Ada tokoh jadi supermodel for Fords Model Agency!!!
Den baru balik honeymoon lah….
Baby The Host for This Post 2:29 am on March 23, 2006 | # |
cekmi:
Ahah! You seem to get my hidden message here. Well done, man.
Ann:
Apa pulak nak marah. No worries! Enjoy!
chot:
Ahah! You also another one that got the hidden message. Thanks, bro!
lunacy:
Ahah! You are the only person that noticed something I didn’t mention! Finally… So why the trouble of shaving and stuff right? haa… there was a reason behind it. And why long skirts because Baby and Izza are learning how to cover ourselves. Hahaha…
hisah:
Ikan cantek… Cantek tak I?
Joe:
Haha… improvement untuk jadi lebih sek eh? hehe… And why supermodel for Fords ajer? I nak semua agency!
Hang pi mana honeymoon balik aja terus den den? hehe…
ken 10:54 pm on October 31, 2006 | # |
taste yg baju putih ahaks
Azzurra 10:45 am on November 5, 2006 | # |
Buon luogo, congratulazioni, il mio amico!
verona 6:47 pm on March 19, 2007 | # |
Stupore! ho una sensibilit molto buona circa il vostro luogo!!!!